MeMoRieZ...........

As I flip over to my Pictures folder on my com and see these pictures, I paused for a while. Then think, these pictures that have been taken, all hold valuable memories of my life. The time that I spend wif these ppl, the laughter that we share, I will always remember every single moment of them. Although the times has passed long ago, but i will always remember, bcos they have been a part of my life. And whether these ppl still rmb me or not, hate me or not, they're still my friends, they're still a part of my life. Watever sins they may have committed against me, I have already forgiven them and wont ever bear a grudge against them. I'll nvr forget them, and the moments we share together, for they are such good memories to me.................

And speaking of memories, I'll b attending my class outing nxt tuesday! I can't really wait to see all my old pals again. 3 yrs of separation is indeed long, and this is the time for us to be reunited again as a class. Or at least I hope every1 is able to come for the outing. Man I can hardly wait for nxt Tues to come! =)

Until then guyz..............................

LiFe ReFlecTionS..........

Okay, okay I'm sorry for not updating this blog for so long but honestly, I've been damn busy off late, and when i say i'm busy, I MEAN IT. I mean, wif guitar practices(I only manage to master the basic chords but at least it's an improvement right? =x), work, my comic(it's been on hold at Chapter 5 at the moment) and now school work, I haven't had enough time for myself or to rest, with this constant worrying thoughts going on my mind. *sigh*.............

For work, it's pretty tough if it doesnt get any worse. What's wif the crowd intake(all the students and NS men crowding in) and the new promotion(the hot & spicy shaker fries) things couldnt b really easy these days, could they? Students usually crowd on wkdays but now sometimes at wkends also(I hear some students have to do smth for Flag Day or smth, collecting donations and stuff......Interesting) but usually students hogged the place for studying(geez, there's a place called the National Library u know). And the NS men keep coming in wif their family, frens, etc.(I get to see some lady officers XD). But dat isnt the worst part! My M'sian pals Suhaimi n Susan r resigning soon n they'll return to their homeland soon.(Well dats a gd thing for them to be reunited wif their families again, but i gonna miss them someday=( )

And now for school, it's bcoming a concern nowadays cause of the recent sem exam result. And it's DISAPPOINTING, wif a big D! I mean this time by far I did the worst, failing 3 subjects this time(this is nothing compared to the sec skool dayz but dats not the pt). Man although I xpect smth bad for my result but I nvr xpect this BAD. Nvm, this is a wake call for me and this time, I'm determine to set things right from now on, n I pray I nvr make the same STUPID mistake ever again. Wat's wif my newly found ambition(I decided to be a Great Secondary School Teacher) on the line, I dare not make a single careless move this time round.

While I'm gone, I've also made some reflections. It didn't make any sense at first when I heard these words but now it do:

Life is the process of a person living;

And through it there's joy and pain, in many forms and many ways;

It's always good to have joy all the time;

But why does some of it have to involve hurting people?

Be it physically, mentally or emotionally?

It wont do no 1 gd if the person is hurt, neither the perpetrator nor the victim;

But why does this pain happen anyway?

It nvr makes any1 feel good, but even if it does for how long will it last?

And why must hatred exist?

Why must conflicts exist?

Why cant ppl learn to understand each other?

And accept each other for who they are, not what they are?

Why does stereotype exist?

Do ppl feel gd labelling others, or getting labelled?

And there again, why must ppl settle conflicts in such a violent manner?

With fights, with war, ppl's life end up destroyed or corrupted;

Without a single chance for redemption or forgiveness;

Does it make ppl glorious for making such cruel acts?

Dun they'll b judged in the end for the sins dat thay have committed?

They say they r working hard not to make the actions dat'll cause them to go to hell;

But it was their choices that they make after all;

And usually blame was placed on other ppl, even God;

And speaking of which, God makes all of us ppl equal;

Though some of us may b different in some ways;

But nvrtheless, no 1 is better than the other;

It depends on their decisions, their actions on how ppl want to live;

But again, why not ppl achieve happiness together, as a society?

When I first read these, I was thinking it must b from some saint, but no, these words were right after all, to me @ least. These words really motivate me to bcome a gd person, no, a better person in my life, to redeem myself from my sins and move forward. After all, neither of us is purely a saint, we dun escape from making mistakes but we can try our best not to repeat them. After all, we are role models to the young ones. If we dun wan them to make the same mistake as we did, we need to make fine examples of ourselves, right?

Until then guyz...........................

PwNeD.......@ WorK

*sigh*, this is the worst day of work i've been in this year(or is there any worse days?). Yeah I seriously would have killed myself for coming for work shud I have known dat these horrible things would have happened.

First off, I was supposed to be doing batch cook for the 1st half of the shift. But man, every1 keeps laughing at me the moment I wear an apron over my uniform just like the other kitchen crews. Yeah every1 especially Izwan, Azri n Nat were laughing at me bcos I think it's their 1st time they see me, wearing an apron, doing batch cook. N Izwan's like "Cheh, ko dah pandai masak ayam seh"(Wow, you are gd at cooking chicken) and I'm like wth? Okay, mayb I couldnt blame any 1 of them bcos they nvr see me cook anything in the kitchen b4 so every1 presume I'm the typical teenager who only knows how to cook instant noodles. Seriously, screw the uniform code, I nvr wear an apron when doing batch cook ever again!

2ndly, I was doing runner for Shi Min when Azri accidentally elbowed my nose and I'm like having to struggle between settling orders while have to stop my nose from bleeding at the same time. Lucky it wasnt serious though, or else I have to go back home early. =(

When things doesn't get any worse, Ah Mun(one of the kitchen aunties) accidentally elbow my stomach while trying to prepare the McChicken meat. Too bad I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. To finish me off, 1 of the managers told me dat my name wasnt in today's work schedule, which means I shudnt have work today! N I've been wasting almost 8hrs for nothing! Damn, screw myself for not checking the schedule properly. But then I'm supposed to work every wkend but y 2day is an exception, I wonder?

Now I gotta rest cos tmr b4 work(confirm got work), I'll b playing soccer wif my old pals from my religious class at the field nearby my house. Can't wait for tmr morning to come =)

Until then guyz.........................

HaTreD..........

Alrite, I know after the incident dat take place about 1 and half months ago, the haters from ROC still do not stop their continuous disturbance on me, be it calling out sarcastic remarks at my workplace or putting up the hate msg at my tagboard or putting up shameful videos abt me on YouTube, when I have continuously ignored them for these past few weeks. I know some of my frens, like Streex, Double D, Ripper and the others are itching to make a payback for these acts but I tell them not to do so. I know you guys do care about me and are going all out to protect me, but I don't want you guys to make any more trouble just bcos of these idiots. Bsides, making the problem bigger isn't gonna solve it. And didn't I told u this 3 impt things?:

Never try to solve any problem by violence;it only make things worse;

We're given the strength to protect ourselves and our loved ones;not to hurt others;

No matter how strong we are, they'll always b some1 stronger than us;

I appreciate ur concern about this matter, but as usual, if there's any problem about me, let me handle it.

As for the ROC, I can only say dat I really pity you all. Although you are respectable talented musicians but if you continue behaving this way, still disturbing other ppl when they dun disturb u all, I'll doubt the public would view u ppl as the gd matured guys. It's up to u to heed this piece of advice, but if u dun then too bad:

If u defame other ppl, u'll defame urself in the process. So stop it.

God makes every one of us equal. So what makes u think u r better than some1 else?

As for the other haters out there, I dun care wth u think of me n I dun wan 2 b bothered bout it either. But it's no use if u ppl wan 2 spread evil rumors bout me cos u'll b looked dwn as the bad guy. I'm not a gd guy either, I do make mistakes n sins as well, but I do not resort to violence to solve problems. And I know wat's right n wat's wrong.

Anyway to all the other readers, I'm sorry but I have to remove the tagboard for a while, until the chaos is over and peace is settled in. I also do not wan 2 do this but it's annoying to see hate msg on my tagboard every single day. So plz bear wif it, if u cant then blame the idiots who hate me. =(.......................

Until then guyz..................................

HavE A GD DaY =)

Well this is finally one of the finest days of my life, after suffering those long days of suffering, finally I manage to give a smile.

Yeah dat's me and my brand new I-Suzuki acoustic guitar. Manage to buy this baby in a package with the guitar case, picks, pick holder, pitch tube(I dunno wth is this for) and a book about guitar chords and tabs for just $75. Initially I want to buy the black colour one which costs $45 without the package but it was sold out but nvm this looks damn gd as well. Only dat since it's white, I have to be extra careful to avoid it being scratched or dirty. But unfortunately, I can't keep this guitar at home bcos my parents wouldn't allow it to be brought home. So it was instead kept at Jule's place. Thanks a lot to Luqman, who share this wonderful piece of information, to Jule and Irwan, who accompany me to Penin just to get this guitar, and again to Jule, who help me to keep the guitar safe for me. Thanks a lot guys, I really appreciate all your help. =)

After buying my guitar, me and Irwan head to the clothes shop(the shopkeeper is really happy to see us again) and I bought a pair of white jeans whereas Irwan bought a dark blue shirt and a pair of white jeans as well. It wasnt really cheap but then the quality is quite good and the shopkeeper is really friendly so we decided dat we'll go to this shop again, should we need any more clothes. =)

Then, we head to Bugis for some window shopping and over there, Irwan bought a pair of shades for himself and a cool tribal designed necklace for me from 77th street. Thanks for the gift, Irwan =)

Next we head back to Pasir Ris to pick up Jule and we bussed dwn to Simei for some jamming. It's been a while since I last been there(the last time I go there wif my former bandmates). Although things doesn't go really well as planned(since I'm a noob guitarist and Irwan's a noob drummer; Jule's the only pro guitarist there lol =x), but we manage to find some of our weaknesses and we trained hard to cover up those mistakes. Even now, we are already planning to make a new song (Irwan wan 2 dedicate it to some1) so I daresay we are really making huge progress, even though we struggle for quite some time. So as I can now safely say, Titanium Hearts is finally on the road to its goal. =)

After jamming, Irwan left early bcos he needs to go home early while Jule and I head back to Pasir Ris and have our chicken rice dinner at Ananas cafe. Seriously, the food is damn gd but it's too little(wat to xpect? It's cheap after all =x). Then we chat for some time b4 we finally head back to our respective homes.

It's really one heavenly day for me today, even though it costs me a bomb(I spend more than a hundred dollars today in total - biggest expenditure in a day). But 1 thing 4 sure, I would wish we can spend another day like this, except dat mayb we shudnt head to Simei for jamming nxt time...............

Haha

You`re looking for something you can`t find
If you give it up, you`ll lose your mind
There`s always something in your way
What can you say?
You`re gonna have good day

- The Click Five

Until then guyz........................................

BroKen TrusT.........

This is part where I scream my 3 days worth of anger out:

Yeah yeah, I've been hearing a hell lot of complains from my managers, and some of my former "comrades" about me not appearing for work and comes up wif the dumbest excuses(eg. kena migraine when can play psp for 5hrs straight....wtf). But then i used to care bout these kind of things, but well, i USED TO. Rite now if u idiots gonna complain to me about anything I'd no longer want to hear it anymore. I no longer care if u idiots gonna suffer cos it's none of my business. U know y i dun care? Bcos u idiots dare to mess arnd wif me, taking advantage of me when I'm actually just helping u out! Instead of thanking me for wasting a hell lot of time dealing wif ur goddamn problems, u actually take advantage to the extend dat I'm just treated like a slave, without any feelings. One last thing b4 I leave, GOOD LUCK bcos I aint helping u anymore, not until u made up for the trust I have 4 u dat's already BROKEN..........

N to my fren, who have betrayed me recently, I dunno wat to say to you anymore. Bcos u already chosen ur path n there's nothing I can do to save you. Even now if you return to me eventually, I wouldn't know if I can accept u back. Well we still can be frens, but I can't care 4 u as a fren like I used to. This is the fate dat u have chosen sadly, so u have to face the consequences willingly............................

Sorry to say this post's been harsh, but I have to vent it out b4 some innocent person could get hurt........

Until then guyz...............................