28th FeB OuTinG

It's been a fun day today. Like planned, I skip work and instead meet Irwan and Julius for a super long but satisfying outing.

Have to wait for at least 10-15 mins for Julius to come at first, then we first head to Penin to check out some guitars - and I have found the cheapest accoustic guitar that Luqman told me about so I gonna set aside bout $60 from the nxt pay to get dat =). Anyway Irwan check out at the hip hop clothing shop to look for some white pants/jeans. Then lastly, we check out at another clothing shop and Julius and Irwan bought themselves a black and a white shirt respectively. I was thinking of buying 1 too, but I gotta sort out my wardrobe 1st haha.

Nxt have a light afternoon snack at Funan's McDonald's. Then head out back to the Hangout Cafe, which is the highlight of the day. First, we play Rock Band, then Guitar Hero, Tekken 6(I play myself) and finally Forza Motorsport 3. The entire experience was hilarious bcos when we play Rock Band and Guitar Hero, we play songs dat none of us have ever heard from(not to mention playing expert lvl till the game pwn us in less than a minute). And in Forza Motorsport 3, Irwan and Julius try to drive the fastest racing cars, but in the end they cant control the car properly(till I lost count how many times they spin the car around) XD

And finally, we have dinner at Peninsula Plaza's Long John Silver(we make fun of a pretty cashier there) then finally head home. It was a good experience in this outing and I hope we get to have another one. And this time, maybe some of our friends would join us as well =).............

Until then guyz....................................

Just got back from another day of work @ McDonald's. As usual, it sucks.

On the brighter side, I do not have to arrange the chiller and the storeroom as the managers usually tell me(even though I see a massive delivery order come in), but on the other side however, I have to deliver 4 trays of prosperity bun(the bun they use for prosperity burger obviously), 2 trays from Tampines Mall branch and 2 trays from Downtown East branch, all to White Sands branch. Wasted like almost 1 hr taking bus and MRT trips, but who cares?

What's more troublesome is that I have to take care of the fries station 4hrs straight because customers keep coming in. According to some of my colleagues, the crowd has been there since 7 or 8am in the morning and until 3pm, the crowd finally clear. And most of the customers are all from the army. Okay, I know today the NS people will be preparing for BMT but is it so many ppl meh? Must be something that I have no idea of. But as usual, I couldn't care less, since it doesn't concern me anyway.

One thing for sure, i can't wait to hangout with Irwan and Julius tomorrow afternoon! Yeah I know I'm supposed to be working tomorrow, but I think I have a break before I spend my regular 6 days/wk work schedule. Irwan wants to check out the white blazer at Century Square but I also want to check out the guitars @ Peninsula Plaza. According to Luqman, the cheapest guitars are all there so I wanna check out every single 1 of them. And yeah, I'm planning to head to the hangout cafe at dhoby ghaut for some Wii fun! =)

Alrite dats all I got for u now...............

Until then guyz.............................

ReFlecTioN

Man lots of strange stuff's been happening lately. First of all, Jule's injured his right hand pretty badly so band rehearsals have to be put on hold(hiaz........) and we would no longer be bowling on Sunday. But I come up wif a brilliant plan of going to the hangout cafe and play console games again! Just like last last wednesday, mayb we'll b playing band heroes again (but too bad Wan n Nat wont b able to join us this time round bcos they r working on dat day -.-). But other than dat, my guitar lessons have to be put on hold until Jule's hand recovered =(. Nvm i'll wait......................

2ndly, there's 2 police vans under my block just now, arnd 8.20pm, when I'm heading to mosque for prayers. I dunno wth is going on but as usual, I couldn't care less. Cos it's not my problem and not my business to begin wif............................

Sometimes when I look up to the sky and think, I wonder "Why are these things happen? They say there's always a reason behind every event but wat is it?". And sometimes I reflect myself "Did I make the right move? Is there a better way to deal this problem? Did I hurt someone when I do it?" Thoughts sometimes makes me realize something but most of the time, it only just messed up my mind..............................

Until then guyz...................................

WheN BoreDoM StrikeS........AGaiN!!

Yeah my plans got cancelled again for today. Cos Uddin suddenly told me that he's broke. Oh well, it's kinda hard to make plans these days, for one thing, it's super difficult to find a common free time among my frenz.........

Therefore, like it's written on the title, yeah I am bored..........almost to death. Yeah I didnt manage to install the latest cfw to my PSP and therefore, I cant play any games. I was planning to buy Rock Band Unplugged UMD since the CSO version kinda sux but then it's still really cost a bomb! $59.80, no joke! I thouht the price might come down after few months but I guess not. Well, maybe after few mths pay I'll get it....................(fyi, my PSP now serve as video player :P)

Yeah usually I do have hobbies at home, like comic drawing for instance, but I'm running out of ideas to draw so I have to put my omic on hold. But meantime, I'll read more mangas to get more inspirations. What am I currently reading? GTO(Great Teacher Onizuka) and Love Hina! Well as some of my frens know, my comic is based on school life and bits of romance so these mangas sure serve as great guides. Other than reading mangas, I do watch anime as well. The last anime series that I watch, Shuffle! and Myself;Yourself;, proves to be great help as well bcos it sometimes give idea on how to give bits of drama to the storyline....................

Anyway music-wise, I'm kinda bored. Bcos rite now all my bandmates in my current band are all on the examination week so I cant ask them out for jamming sessions cos they have to study for the exams. So i have to make do with watever I have at the moment, but I still cant wait for the exams to be done, cos I'm waiting for Julius to give me guitar lessons(lol). But then as I see the my old bands, I am really proud of them. Even though I cant b there together wif them, but I will always be supporting all of them. Why? Because every single one of those musicians, no matter what happen to them, be it gd or bad, he/she'll nvr give up. They'll keep pushing one step forward at a time towards their respective goals. And dat's the 1 thing I respect about them. And thus it's been made as my personal motto as a musician:

To respect every musician for their talents, not their personalities;

No musician is better than the other, every one is special in his/her own ways;

As for me and my own band, well, we'll work hard and make sure we don't fall behind too much. =)

Meantime, hmmmmm, what should I do?

Until then guyz......................

EXhausTed

Just got back from work................

Ya rite!

Nah actually got home bout 30 mins ago n i dcide to destress 1st so play 8 rounds of Counter-Strike and now I'm feeling way better.

But it's kinda strange just now when I was in charge of cooking fries, I suddenly feel so moody. I dunno, maybe I'm kinda tired or smth. Sorry guys for making such fuss wif dat gloomy face n poor attitude, mean no malice...............

But overall, it's kinda happy day for me. Finally able to converse wif Nat as per normal(the ice has finally been broken) but when Irwan offer me to be Nat's tutor, it's a definite NO-NO. Not because of me schooling as Nat pointed out but I already sworn NOT to tutor any1 after wat happen last yr. But still all the best for ur Math O lvl, Nat! =) (need help?dun call me. Nah just kiding haha =P)

N also, lots of thanks to Irwan, finally got a new deck of poker cards with Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children theme on it. And because of it, me, Irwan and Atiqah play during Irwan's n my breaks and even before me n Irwan go home. Irwan likes to give up easily after I pwn him 4 games in a row, but Atiqah proves to be damn difficult to beat. But I manage to win her 3-2 games! Haha! Take dat! =x

Anyway tmr, would b bowling @ e-hub rite after Friday prayers wif Uddin n his bro. Been a while since i last met him so it's gd to finally able to have fun wif him =)

Until then guyz...............................

FrusTraTed........

Couple of weeks backs I've read a post at Nat's blog bout how frustrated she was when her plans kept getting cancelled and now it's happening to ME today. Usually I'm a home-body and would not go out often but this time I think I understand this feeling of frustration dat she felt at dat time.

Here's the list of plans dat got cancelled today:

1) Event: Going to gym wif Irwan this morning

What Happen: Irwan cancel

Reason: Irwan's family problems

2) Event: Going to Century Square to get Irwan's blazer

What Happen: I cancel =P

Reason: Irwan forget got Sunday to do grp shopping spree wif me and Julius(wth?)

3) Event: Play bowling wif Uddin

What Happen: Uddin cancel

Reason: Uddin too tired after finishing his exam(wth?)

4) Event: Have dinner wif Sharmaine n the PRC gang

What Happen: Sharmaine cancel

Reason: Due to super low response from the PRC gang, Sharmaine cancel the dinner cos she thought no pt organizing the dinner(I even plan to show her my comic vol.1 to her)

Yeah, dats all of it. A lot rite? I know. But seriously I was damn frustrated and disappointed but nvm, in the end I watch my favourite DVDs at home. Not so bad after all rite? But 2moro I'd be definitely be back to work, that's the only plan dat's definitely confirmed - else Eli would definitely kill me, and some more got pay. But even though it's not really enjoyable but if I'm lucky enough to b at the counter front, I would b able to see school gals entering Mcd (wtf? XD)

That's bout all for now I guess. Wtf, I take 30mins to write this post?

Until then guyz.....................

P.S. I'm beginning to love Taylor Swift's "You Belong With Me" =P

Zzzzzz........

Ah, finally i'm back at my com. Sorry guyz, i was pretty busy wif a hell lot of things dats been happening lately so I was pretty busy wif stuff till I have no time to update.

Anyway let's start off wif me. Yeah I finally reach 19 years old! Yeah my birthday has passed by last Friday. And to all my frens who flooded my inbox wif b'dae wishes, thanks a lot guys! I really appreciate it coz u ppl really make my day! =) Even though on dat special day I was kinda bored in the afternoon coz every1's busy doing their own stuff(for 1 moment I thought they forgot my b'dae). But the night celebration was fantastic! Brought to a restaurant @ Bedok to have a feast there(I got my favourite Chilli Crab and Shark Fin Soup yay! =D) then later go over 2 Ray's place and have a party there wif some of my old bands B3 and Street Sharkz. Of course there's jamming there and I get to perform my favourite songs. Man, these guyz surely know how to make great parties for me, thanks again guyz. Just like the old times, my b'day were nvr dull(even though i dun get any presents =( )

Talking bout great outing, last wednesday gotta hangout wif Wan, Nat and Wei Ming @ dhoby ghaut. I forgot wat's the place name but it's a cafe dat provide console games for us to play. So we play Band Hero, Guitar Hero and Wii Sports. Band Hero was fine, except that the others make me vocal stupid songs like "YMCA" and even Taylor Swift's "You belong with me" (Seriously it's damn funny when Nat make me vocal the Taylor Swift song - I practically make a fool of myself there). Nxt is Guitar Hero, where me n Wan compete against each other as we play Linkin Park's "What I've Done". Yeah I know u r a much better guitarist damnit -.- . And finally Wii Sports, which happens to be my least favourite game. Bowling sux cause I cant really bowl, be it in real life or at Wii Sports. Canoeing is even more stupid cos we just tire ourselves by rotating our arms counter clockwise (I think none of us know how to paddle in 1st place cause the canoe keep going off course). Worst of all, archery, where the others practically laughing their ass off when I simply cant keep my hand still without shaking(Damnit i'm cut out for guns, not bow n arrows -.-). But I love table tennis n swordfighting, cos i gotta show my talent in those 2(although Nat complain I was too over-excited when I play swordfighting, but i got to pwn u, Wan haha). We finish playing at around 10 then have dinner at BK. But overall, I have loads of fun and I really enjoy myself. Thanks guys.................and I would certainly love to go to dat cafe again sometimes.....................

Dats for the ups but there's certainly some dwns as well. For example, there's been a fight or smth between my 2 close frens @ Mac (for some reason I do not know) and they certainly do not wan 2 speak or acknowledge each other again. It's really sad and I simply do not know wat to do. It just sadden me whenever I have to just watch this going on helplessly. But I do hope they patch things up really soon......................

And yeah now I'm freaking pissed off wif some ppl. Yeah i know i've always been angry but these ppl really drive me nuts. Seriously, they just claim dat they r my frens but they do not treat me likewise. They say that I meant a lot to them but they dun mean it. They left me out at great parties and they do not bother to give the slightest attention when I'm in deep shit. They say they got my back but they feign ignorance the moment I get into trouble. Seriously, if u ppl got problems wif me then spit the shit out, instead of giving me this fuckin treatment, u shitheads!

Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away

- Linkin Park

Until then guyz..........................

CNY n VaLenTine

Before I say anything here, I would firstly like to wish all of my chinese friends a happy and prosperous new year.

On to business, Chinese new year has finally come again. And yesterday which happens to be the eve, White Sand McDonald's is almost like a ghost town. And I cant blame it because the shopping mall itself is like a bigger ghost town. So, not much of customers, yeah even during peak period, so it's kinda boring. But then I really have to feel sorry for my China colleagues. I mean, they have to be stuck here while every other Chinese ppl are at reunion dinners, I must say that I think they would wish that they could be reunited with their family again. Or so I think.

And yeah, today's also happen to be Valentine's Day, which is to explain why I've seen so many couples around lately, be it teenagers and even adults. Some of my fellow colleagues may have wanted to go out wif their bf/gf but then, I dun think the same. Why? Because I think I may have enjoyed being single for three years now to the fact that these kind of things doesn't really bother me. But then, it's not as if I'm attached now, so who am I to complain?

But if there's one thing I would like to complain, it's about work. Seriously, everyone thinks that I'm a robot or something? A person who can do everything so perfectly without a single mistake? A person with no feelings or emotions? Damn it lah, i'm a normal human being for God's sake! It's bad enough to have a manager who picks on me every single time without leaving me in peace, it's worse to have colleagues who mess up my work and laugh at me when I'm so messed up! Seriously, I was feeling so pissed and tired and stressed, but I choose to keep quiet and contain my anger instead of letting it bursting out. And some more I was requested to work tomorrow becos short of crew, but nvm, I'll let my mood to dcide to work or not........

And oh before I forget, to all psp gamers, if u r playing homebrew or downloaded games, DO NOT update your firmware to ofw 6.20. Bcos it wont be able to read any of your games. This happens to me yesterday so I'm downgrading it back to 5.50 GEN-D.....

Until then guyz........................

-.-!!!

Well today has been a bad day for me, starting right from the morning, the time that I wasted my morning nap for nothing. Yeah, well I actually wake up early and started working on my leftover programming assignment, only to be stuck at the beginning part(and it's not even 1/3 of the work done). So i knew i gonna fail the subject anyway and now, I have to start preparing for the supplementary paper............

But then on a brighter side, I finally manage to get my comic book done. Yeah finally the 1st volume, which contains only 4 episodes, are finally done. It's quite well done I must say, although it's not as good as the Japanese manga(which I try to follow but fail eventually), but it's not so bad after all(obviously because I've been putting huge amounts of time and effort on it). And now I think I'll take a break before I start working on the 2nd volume...........

Yesterday was kinda weird though, because while I was working on my assignment, I receive a call from Faiz, a former classmate of mine and a gd friend, in the middle of the night. But it's not even past 5 mins or so and the line was cut off. Try to call him back but he nvr answer my call. So I didnt really know why Faiz called, but it's gd to hear him again. Watever he wans from me, well, I couldn't really care abt it...............

But man, I cant really wait for tomorrow. My new band, Titanium Hearts, is about to begin its 1st rehearsal! Man, this is so exciting and I bet I cant fall asleep cos I really cant wait for dat moment to come...................=)

Until then guyz.....................

FRienDs............

"Friends come n go in time" dats wat my mum used to tell me and yeah I do believe it. Bcos indeed, i used to know a lot of ppl throughout my lifetime but I'm close with very few of them nowadays. It's sad but as they say "There will be very few true frens but they'll b by ur side @ all times if u need them". And those words are very true. After all, the only pals dat I'm very close wif up to now, there's only 2 of them. Uddin, who's been my best fren since sec 1, n Wan, whom I know since primary 5.

Anyway it's sad but as life moves on, friendships will be affected as well(or so i've heard)...........

But now, I'm on the verge of losing another fren cos we've been in arguments bcos of certain misunderstandings and I really wan 2 make up wif her, just dat I cant find the rite time to do so. But I hope she's reading this:

My Friend,

It's been over more than three weeks or so that we have not chat with each other. It pains me every single time that we do not talk and laugh like we used to before we have these stupid arguments.

I know that I do not speak to you or even look at you. You must have felt that I am simply ignoring you, that I no longer care about you as a friend. But the truth is that I do care, it's just that I was afraid that you would not respond, or that I may unintentionally hurt you even deeper. That was why I do not dare to get near you, especially when I have no ideas how you feel about me.

And speaking of feelings, it is true that I have been hiding my feelings about you. It is true that I used to have a crush on you. But I realize that no matter how much I want to be close with you, it will never happen. Ever. For you deserve someone who is better than me. For I do not deserve someone who is so kind, so gentle as you are.

But even if we are not meant to be lover, I am very scared to lose you as a friend. Why sacrifice our two years of friendship, those times of joy and laughter, just because of these stupid arguments and misunderstandings? Would we just be mere acquaintances just because of this crap that have happen to us? No, I do not want that to happen! Not at all!

I am really sorry if I have hurt you, if I have broken your trust. Really I am. Because I never meant any of these to happen, not even one of them. I never intend to make you angry, or to make you cry, not even once. If there's always an opportunity, I would do whatever I can to make up for the things I've done.

But I understand now, it's all too late now. I understand if you do not wish to forgive me. I've taken full responsibility for the wounds I have inflicted on you and I will face whatever consequences, that comes along with it. But again, I hope, that whatever that have taken place, will not affect our friendship.

Because I hope, that no matter what happens, no matter where you are, we'll always be friends.

Please, if you have read this, let me know alright?

Until then guys.............................

TiTaNiuM HeArtS.........

Yay! Now I can finally say that I have escaped hell, which refers to the disturbances i receive for the past few weeks. I can guess that peace has finally settled in, even though I receive word dat the haters have been defaming me at websites such as YouTube, but I couldn't really care less bout dat. They would think that I would be crying over such actions that they have taken when in fact, I've been laughing my ass off. Especially the part when they say I would b coughing when they participate in a competition without me - me and my new bandmates were practically ROFL. Yeah seriously, cos we were all thinking "These jokers have seriously no idea wth they r saying". But nvm, we promise we dun butt in their business any longer bcos we dun wan 2 b involved wif them any more than I do.

So yeah about my new band, Titanium Hearts, we are a 5-piece alternative/pop rock band rocking right from the PRC, consisting of a lead vocalist, a lead guitarist, a rhythm guitarist, a bassist and a drummer. We play almost all genre(except metal ones) favourites from Blink 182, We The Kings, Green Day, Simple Plan, The Click Five, Yellowcard, Daughtry, Linkin Park, Secondhand Serenade and many more. We will also be composing our own songs as well bcos we dun wan to play just other ppl's songs u know. As we are a new band, we need all the help and support we need from our family and friends.

Yup dat shud b all for my new band, and we will make the band's Tagged group page and blog when we have the time. But for now, we are doing as much as we can to do get these set up asap.

So far I could say this has been a good break from all the hell that has break through for the past few weeks. Excpet dat there's few things that have been weird lately. For example, last saturday, a fire break out at my workplace and I have to carry 3 extremely heavy bottles of heavy duty cleaning liquid(just to realize later that I have just wasted 4 hrs of my precious time just to tire myself out). Okay about the fire I'm not really sure if it's really true but I realise there's a hell lot of smoke coming out of the kitchen. So this 'chaos' was due to an equipment malfunction(wth?).

Okay enough about the stupid fire, nxt up is even more stupid phone calls at midnite! Seriously I was sleeping peacefully when there's a couple of strange phone calls. The numbers are unknown so I didn't answer any of them at all. In fact who the hell wants to talk to me in the middle of the night?

Yeah these shud summarize the events that happen for these past few days, so i'll update anything interesting when I have the time.......=)

Until then guyz........................