FRienDs............

"Friends come n go in time" dats wat my mum used to tell me and yeah I do believe it. Bcos indeed, i used to know a lot of ppl throughout my lifetime but I'm close with very few of them nowadays. It's sad but as they say "There will be very few true frens but they'll b by ur side @ all times if u need them". And those words are very true. After all, the only pals dat I'm very close wif up to now, there's only 2 of them. Uddin, who's been my best fren since sec 1, n Wan, whom I know since primary 5.

Anyway it's sad but as life moves on, friendships will be affected as well(or so i've heard)...........

But now, I'm on the verge of losing another fren cos we've been in arguments bcos of certain misunderstandings and I really wan 2 make up wif her, just dat I cant find the rite time to do so. But I hope she's reading this:

My Friend,

It's been over more than three weeks or so that we have not chat with each other. It pains me every single time that we do not talk and laugh like we used to before we have these stupid arguments.

I know that I do not speak to you or even look at you. You must have felt that I am simply ignoring you, that I no longer care about you as a friend. But the truth is that I do care, it's just that I was afraid that you would not respond, or that I may unintentionally hurt you even deeper. That was why I do not dare to get near you, especially when I have no ideas how you feel about me.

And speaking of feelings, it is true that I have been hiding my feelings about you. It is true that I used to have a crush on you. But I realize that no matter how much I want to be close with you, it will never happen. Ever. For you deserve someone who is better than me. For I do not deserve someone who is so kind, so gentle as you are.

But even if we are not meant to be lover, I am very scared to lose you as a friend. Why sacrifice our two years of friendship, those times of joy and laughter, just because of these stupid arguments and misunderstandings? Would we just be mere acquaintances just because of this crap that have happen to us? No, I do not want that to happen! Not at all!

I am really sorry if I have hurt you, if I have broken your trust. Really I am. Because I never meant any of these to happen, not even one of them. I never intend to make you angry, or to make you cry, not even once. If there's always an opportunity, I would do whatever I can to make up for the things I've done.

But I understand now, it's all too late now. I understand if you do not wish to forgive me. I've taken full responsibility for the wounds I have inflicted on you and I will face whatever consequences, that comes along with it. But again, I hope, that whatever that have taken place, will not affect our friendship.

Because I hope, that no matter what happens, no matter where you are, we'll always be friends.

Please, if you have read this, let me know alright?

Until then guys.............................