Last weekend sucks really hard, cos I cannot resign from my job at White Sands McDonald's for the eighth time in a row (yeah i know I promise that I wouldn't quit but then my income rate is too freaking low!) and therefore, i'm still stuck at being a crew there. And it's not as if I got promoted or smth(when I notice there's already quite a lot of ppl who are already promoted b4 me(and yeah i'm talking bout ppl who's been wif this company for a shorter time than me). But then slowly but surely, i notice things kinda change around there when I step in for work last Saturday. I mean the arrangement in the basement storeroom change again(that part I don't really care so long as I can find everything) but the storeroom door knob is still not changed when it's already spoilt!(In the end I was trapped inside the basement storeroom for half an hour before I manage to break open the door)
And for yesterday, I have to arrange the storeroom and the bun trays again. Seriously, if a McDonald's crew wants a gd workout he should try doing these tiring tasks. I mean, sometimes the manager may order too much for example, and in the end you gotta sort everything out and arrange all of them nicely so that everyone can move around in the storeroom without having to squeeze around.
If there's another significant change I notice around my workplace is that I can no longer interact freely with my old pals there anymore. I can talk freely with some of the juniors like Luqman and Azri for example but I can no longer do the same to any of my old frens and I don't know why. Okay I can understand that 1 of them already promoted to floor manager and he tends to be more busier(when he also have to train a new trainee manager) but what about the others? And another one of them even complain that I purposely avoiding her, pretending not to notice her n everything. Well, I know I fought wif her once and we already apologize to each other but if you continue to ignore my msg n everything, how the hell shud I know that you are still angry wif me or smth?
Sometimes it's not that I want to pretend that nothing happens when a hell lot of things have already taken place. And it's not that I don't want to be happy and rather b moody all the time. And it's also not as if I don't want to laugh when I feel like crying all the time. Very few ppl really care about how I really feel or whether I'm really doing well but for the others, why must they assume the worst of me when they have no idea of what my thoughts and worries are? There's lots of times that I just wanna scream my lungs out, that I wish the pain could finally go away because I can no longer stand the despair that I'm suffering........
But on a brighter note, I manage to make a new fren recently. Her name's Irah(short for Shahirah) and she's 17 this yr. I first got to know her when she add me on tagged then later at msn. We chat for twice(I think, or is it three times?) before she surprisingly give me her no. and ask me to chat wif her via text. She's really a nice gal who's quite concerned abt me(we talked abt my problems last nite) and she has quite a similar(but not exactly) background so we have a few interests in common. Few of my frens are already teasing me abt this, saying dat the 2 of us might hit off, but who knows?
Wow, that's really quite an essay that I've written here haha. Yup, this shud've summarized watever dat have happen this past wk. My god, this's like an essay back in secondary skool(can i get an A here? haha). Alrite that's bout all I think.................
Until then guyz..................................
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