PuaSA 2010 OuTinG..........

Finally, manage to update this blog. Sorry for the wait, cos been busy wif MP to the pt where I got too shagged to update. But anyway talking abt MP, it's all over, or well to be exact my part is over. Done the GUI improvements within 45mins, man I'm a genius(nolah just kidding). So now waiting for my team member Keith to finish his part, compile evrything, make system demo video then finally bye2 to MP! ^^\/

But still, there isnt much to rejoice cos my internship is to start on 13 Sept. Yeah, 13 Sept! 4th day of Hari Raya! Man I gonna have to curse myself for being stuck inside the office while evry1 else is out celebrating. N my new office gonna b located somewhere near Paya Lebar. Company? Infosec Pacific Pte Ltd. Didnt hear much bt my mum say it's a big company, so I was hoping my pay mayb big also? Haha, fat chance la, I only intern there! Oh yeah this would also mean bye2 for now to White Sands Mcd cos I not allowed to work part time during internship. Well, dats the only plus point I guess, chg of scenery? But still, WHY MUST MY INTERNSHIP BE DURING HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! =(

Ok cut the crap. Anyway yesterday nite was a blast! Manage to buka wif Uddin n his frens, Aziz, Ashik, Iskandar, Putri, Aliana, Raihana and (uh, sorry I forget to the others' names =P). Scrumptious meal @ simpang bedok. We arrive there quite late (due to unforeseen circumstances) but luckily Iskandar already got some place for us already. It was fun, we share each other's food including 1 glass of red syrup which I think it's extra lol. =x

And so after dinner we head to the playground nearby and lepak over there (oho, nvr go Terawih prayers eh?). N yeah over there, mainly I intro myself cos some of uddin's frens only 1st time met me. N since I was informed dat Raihana love to sing, so I was requested to do some demo vocal in songs like Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade and Scars by Papa Roach. But I didnt manage to hear Raihana sing though, but there's always nxt time. But overall, got a super fun experience n would love to hang out wif them again. =)

Wanna make plans to jalan2 during Hari Raya but damn, my internship interferes! Ah crap =(

These are some of the photos taken yesterday:








My dinner: Mee Bandung

Uddin's Dinner: Kway Teow Goreng (I think)

Total bill: $49.50 - not bad for 6 ppl's meal



Rest of the pics @ Aziz's FB page. Lazy to upload all =x

Until then guyz..........................

FasTing Mth =/

Yeah today is officially the first day of fasting for Muslims, including a$$holes like me as well XD. Nah just kidding. So far I have done well to fast during the last 18 Ramadhan mths so I'm sure this 1 is no biggie either. Only dat the same trait dat I pray for it to go away, unfortunately still resides me - the more hungrier I am, the more grouchier I am, the more angrier I get, the higher tendency dat I feel like blowing some1's head off (ok the last 1 is just xtra haha).......

But still usually arnd this time is when I take time to reflect upon myself. Whether I have been good or bad, whether I have done things I shud/shudnt, whether I have/have not hurt some1 accidentally/intentionally. Whether I have/have not learnt anything from this past yr. Yeah, I do a hell lot of reflection and thinking during this period...............

And up until now my MP is still torturing me. Okay, @ least it's 99.9% finished, only left 1 bug in the system which I have no f***ing idea how the bloody hell am I gonna resolve it. And I only have until this friday to get it done. Haiz.........

Until then guyz...................

BacK as in.......BACK

To all readers a big
SORRY :(
for not updating this blog for the past couple weeks. I've been really damn busy for such a freakin long time and I have really lost track of things, n sadly this blog included.

Yup, like I said A LOT of things happen these past few weeks which is to explain y I can nvr find the time to go and update this blog. Yeah it's been a SUPER hectic past few weeks, from 9am to 6pm on weekdays and 1 to 9pm on weekends. So at the end of each day I was so freakin shagged dat I fall asleep the moment I lay dwn on my bed =.=

Skoo sux as usual, if not worse. But @ least my Japanese class is finally cleared after the horrible role play assessment(I gotta tell u it's really the worst role play ever). But overall, I really do enjoy studying Japanese and the learning experience, minus the stupid Sensei of course. Anyway since it has come to an end, I really gonna miss some of my mates, esp my "library mate" Wayne, funny guy Clement, irritating bastard Bryan and the "always act cute" Dan2-chan! Oh well I wish all of them the best. =)

But still there's Major Project which I cant even say how much my team has progressed. I mean after 5 wks of hardwork the supervisor ask us to redo it in a Web application within wat, 3 wks? Screw it, we gonna do as much as we can and we gonna leave it as it is.

Work still sux as usual. Cos it gets really boring when all my juniors are all in their own world, as in all of them try to act proud when they have such minuscule experience compared to the seniors. Well, it's not really my problem anyway, so long as they dun really dare to mess arnd wif me too much. I'm happy to be their senpai(senior) and give appropriate advices whenever necessary but other than dat, I'm all for peace!

As for my band, well, we've really grown much. Now wif the addition of bassist(Gladys been replaced by Jeryl) and drummer, we are finally a complete 5-piece alternative/pop rock band. Well, there's still some consideration whether to bring in a keyboardist but well, we'll think of it ltr. Progress-wise, it's still slow, considering we take almost 3 mths to master 1 song(Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus) as a band, and now we are learning a new song, entitled Dear Maria Count Me In by All Time Low. Had a discussion wif Brendon abt the band's progress, but due to circumstances, we cant really improve much faster. Oh well, dat means it's gonna be quite a loooooooooooooooong time b4 we start planning our performances/gigs.

And today me n Brendon gonna go for NAPFA retake this afternoon, not dat we actually care but just go settle it once and for all.

Dats all for now, I update u when I have the time, alrites?

Until then guyz...............................

ExHausTeD..............

Man, things have been rather tiring lately..................

Last saturday, have to attach to CA2 (Changi Airport Terminal 2) from 12 - 8pm, and all the way, I was on lobby duty! Well, not exactly the entire time cos I've spent 3/4 of the time wiping trays and mopping the entire lobby floor. The shift manager praise me 4 being hardworking but truthfully, I do all those cos I was bored. Ok nvm, @ least some of the crew there r quite friendly, like 1 of the kitchen auntie who give me some freebies(gd thing I nvr eat breakfast haha!), Taufiq who's actually a lobby specialist but takes like 45mins just to brief a newcomer(Wtf?) and Obby, the Indonesian lobby crew who's quite chatty sometimes when both of us r bored. But anyway, gd thing Jamal is there with me, though he gets to do the counterfront runner duty(traitor =x). But overall, the experience isnt dat enjoyable but it's not dat bad either.........................

And last sunday, I was back at my mainstore PRC(Pasir Ris Central) and this time, I was doing counter duty when the customer keep pouring in from like 3pm(I think) all the way to 8+pm. Most of the time I was having dry throat out of talking so many customers for such a long time, but I can't afford to go for quick break bcos there's too few crew and if I do go, there'll b only 1 counter open. Luckily got some1 who takes over me so I can go break, or I think I'll lose my voice. Haiz.......................

After all the tiring wkends, I'm supposed to come 2 skool yesterday, but due to fatigue + laziness + rain, I didnt go in the end. But since my teammates n my supervisor isnt coming to the lab so I guess it beats the pt of myself going to the lab when I can do the work @ home. But despite being super tired, I was able to finish pretty much of the work dat's to be done 2day. So now, only left 2 present 2 my supervisor n ask for his comments....................

Hope evrything goes well, or I'll b hanging myself................

Until then guyz........................

UnExPecTeD......

Well a lot of surprising things happen yesterday. Yep a lot......

1stly, the Major Project is like 1 super gigantic project which actually make use of tracking system to find problems in the computer. Yeah it's the most basic thing u can find in the typical antivirus software. N we suppose to make the tracking system like better than these antivirus software. Alrite, it's a challenge indeed but the workload involved is damn A LOT! Even with the equal distribution of workload amongst my team but it's still A LOT! Anyway the work dat my teammates give r a bit crappy so I have to spend last nite n this morning just to edit their work to make it look better -.-

Anyway talking abt Major Project, remember the previous post I say I know nothing about Pearlyn? Well after yesterday, I do learn A LOT about her. Well, she happens to be a young mother of 2 children (1 abt 2yrs old, the other is I-forgot-how-much months old). So this explains y she wait 2 yrs to start on MP. And since she got responsibilities @ home, this actually occur to me that she cant take a too heavy workload. And since again I'm the team leader, so I have to revise again the distribution of the workload. Kinda make things difficult for me but I guess it cant be helped. Oh yeah if there's another thing I learn abt this matter it's: Never judge a book by its cover, check ur facts 1st b4 judging them.....................

And FINALLY, I manage to get FB contacts of all my old pals (Marcus, Ain, Faiz n Syafiq) n now I actually plan to meet them on 9 July, which is two weeks from now. Well in the past we've made a lot of wonderful n hilarious memories(some of them I was embarassed come to think of them) n I guess we'll b making more of such fun memories on dat day. But then Ain last min say she might have to work on dat day since she already apply off on other days, but we'll see how it goes. Man, I can't wait to see them again =)....................

Oh yeah talkin about FB, there's this 1 gal who add me last wed, but yesterday she scold me vulgarities for no reason then delete me from her fren list. Ok seriously it's more like she's just disturbing so it's more like I'm annoyed rather than being angry wif her. Cos this is just a simple case of person who have nothing else better 2 do, was bored, then scold ppl for no reason. A word of advice for this gal,

Do urself a favour n see a psychiatrist. Dun anyhow add ppl if u dunno them! U r lucky i dun give a shit abt u but there r some ppl who dun tolerate this nonsense, so watch wat u r saying cos if u dun, u gonna get hurt really BAD, BITCH! -.- _|_

Yeah dats all i gonna talk 4 2day, so i'll update u guys when smth come up...........

Until then guyz.......................

BoRinG............

Yeah, dat's the word to describe yesterday. Although I've made few plans yesterday, but it seems things doesnt work out like I did................

So yesterday morning I woke up at 12pm, when I actually have SIP n MP briefing which starts from 8am to 10am. N I'm like, shit, I've accidentally missed out those 2. N I'm supposed to e-mail my MP supervisor but I cant find his bloody e-mail address so I ask my other 2 members to do it. N up to now they didnt update me so I have no idea whether they already do it or not. N yeah I'm supposed to do the goddamn survey but I totally 4got abt it. Damn this tiny school stuff keeps buggin me n it's freakin irritating....................

Talking bout yesterday, I was supposed to attend the crew outing since I purposely skipped my Jap class. However when I reach Changi, 1st, I was lost cos I nvr go Changi for a super long time n I nvr been there on my own. 2nd, the rain is like damn heavy. 3rd, I cant find the damn venue for the crew outing. They say it's @ aloha changi but fuck, it's like so big sia the place. Then they say they send some1 2 find me but I guess they couldnt find me, even though i already tell them i waiting @ the reception. The last straw is when I find out none of my pals r going for the crew outing so eventually I dcide to give it up n go home. N since I bathe in the rain for almost 2 hrs trying to find the damn venue I was feeling bit dizzy n i thought i gonna get fever so pt going rite? But anyway i not saying it's the organizer's fault, cos they actually pick the area dat I nvr been b so yeah, lesson learnt: I shud go out more often n xplore the other areas.......................

But since I dcide 2 go home, I was like damn bored, seriously. Cos I wasnt allowed to use the laptop so I got nothing else better 2 do. Furthermore, some of my bandmates r still overseas so cant organize any jamming session, so therefore, I was fuckin BORED. Yeah i shud've attend the Jap class, even though it's boring but @ least go smth 2 do. N now I dunno my teammates for the grp assignment thx 2 my stupid decision making. Hiaz......................

So in the end, since most of my frens r offline so I dcide to spend the entire day sleeping(mostly) n watching anime(dat I already watch for god-knows-how-many times). Thinking of resuming my comic scripting but my brain juice is empty. N no mood to practise my vocals..................

@ least 2day got meeting wif my MP mates n supervisor ltr, or else same thing will happen like yesterday:pure BOREDOM XP....................................

Until then guyz..........................

I HaVe ReTurNeD

Yeah I know I havent been updating this blog for a while, sorry. Been pretty busy wif my damn life so it's kinda hard to find time to update this. So hope u guys understand..............

Anyway the new term has started, yeah me is starting my Major Project this term, although i think i may forsee myself failing it without having to look at it once. Ah man things haven even start and I already start complaining, you may say but seriously i meant wat I say u know. KK y am i seeing things damn negatively? Cos first of all, I've been given the last project, which happens to be the worst project, involving all this vulnerability checking shit or watever it is. 2ndly, i've been given the WORST possible grp members ever for this project:

Keith I worked wif him a lot of times n i know he tends to get things done really slowly(oklah not as bad as nvr do at all rite?) n also he tends to sidetrack a lot(ah talking bout him n his Mousehunting, kinda ticks me off sometimes)

Pearlyn: I dun even know who the hell she is! She's not from my class, she's not from my batch(must be a repeat student i think)......I have no goddamn fuckin idea who on earth is she! Well nvm, i just gonna pray she's a hardworker like me(self-appraisal =P), or else i think i gonna really flunk my major project this yr...........................

Anyway aside from dat, recently I've been keeping tabs on my FB account cos a lot of my old pals (Dex, Leonard, Ain, Zul, Faiz, Syafiq, Ash, Joel) add me. God i miss them so much! I mean I've met up wif Yan, Mas, Raudha n Syahmi but i haven seen the rest of my old pals yet. Wonder how they r doing now, n whether I'm able to see them in the near future =/.....................

Aside from dat, I've been pretty active wif my band Titanium Hearts. Yeah they're like my brothers n sis to me now, since I've always hang out wif them lately. Progress-wise, it's still slow as usual but at least we are still making steady progress. Yeah we have mastered 21 Guns, Fall for You n Face Down(acoustic) n we r slowly mastering the rock version of Face Dwn. Yesterday we try to master Sezairi Sezali's song "Broken" but we dcide to drop it since we cant find the damn chords/tabs. Oh yeah, we recently kick our drummer, Hilmi, due to his lack of commitment so now we r finding a drummer. Doesnt matter if u r not skilled(I can teach u the basics) but if u r interested, plz do contact me or my members at my band blog: http://titanium-hearts.blogspot.com

And finally, crew outing for this yr coming up tmr! Well I dunno whether I would be going cos I have Advanced Jap class on dat afternoon n some more it's really such a pain in the ass to go back Pasir Ris then back to Tampines n finally go to Aloha Changi. Not to mention all my old workmates already resigned, left me alone wif the newbies. But as Uncle Jonathan said "it's only once a while the Company organize an outing for us so rugi kalau tak pergi(wasted if dun go)". So i have till tmr morning to think about it......................

Alrite, i gotta get ready for my MP training, so i'll update u guys later k?

Until then guyz..............................
(P.S. dun mind my new blog design, i was bored -.-)

PreSenTaTionS N DeadLineS

(Dun mind me, I'm just plain bored -.-)

Yeah 2day is finally the presentation day for ITPM. Hope evrything goes well since I spent a hell lot of time preparing 4 this shit. But anyway, hope the teacher wont ask any stupid questions or else I'll b very tempted to reply stupid answers haha 0_0

But anyway, this isnt really over yet, there's still TAIN n ITOS presentations and assignment submissions to handle. Though both of them are really such pain in the ass.......But let's hope evrything goes well for dat, or I shall be headbanging on the wall for the rest of the week 0.0

Man, I already been screaming my lungs out of frustration for these past wk, but lets hope tmr's jamming session is gd enough to relieve me from all the stress though >.<

Dats it for now, I know it's short but i'm just doing this just to kill time waiting for presentation............

Until then guyz...................................

KnN CcB!!!!

Yeah as the title says it all, it means I really do not have a really gd time yesterday. Bcos of some stupid ppl............

1st of all, spend like almost 8hrs studying for ITPM Class Test 2 (5 hrs wif Larry), yeah from 9am all the way to 5pm. And later just to find out that most of the topics I learn nvr come out at all. But luckily Larry did highlight some of the things dat might come out n surely, it did! Thx a lot man, even though i was really dying u really did make an attempt to "revive me" 0_0

But anyway, there's also some random bastard who go hack into my MSN, Tagged n FB n chg my profile updates. Not dat i'm really angry, it's more like I'm annoyed. Cos seriously it's damn fcuking childish sia. I mean 1 thing ppl not gonna believe to sudden unrecognizeable chgs cos ppl already know me when they already meet me personally. 2nd thing, is dat u wouldnt really wan other ppl do the same thing 2 u so y u do this kind of crap to me. Wat i'm trying 2 say in other words is dat no 1 will benefit out of this childish game of urs. So just grow up for God's sake but if u dun wan 2 then FCUK OFF N DIE U MF!!!

sorry but i seriously need to get back to my assignments so i'll update u guys later k?

Until then guyz.......................................

StreSS n FrusTraTions.........

Yeah it's been 1 hell of a week, or to be exact, evryday is seriously damn stressful lately. Seriously it's been nothing but STRESS all the time and there isnt a time for me to relax.

Okay I admit I have poor time management for the last weekend, but seriously, it cant b helped! I was planning to complete my assignments after i got back from work but due to overwhelming customer intake for the last 2 days, I kena OT 2 days in a row. I wouldnt have mind since there's more pay but then sadly, i was too tired when I reach home and knock out by the time I reach my bed. N dat's how my assignments get piled up.......sadly.........

But anyway apart from dat, it's seriously frustrating whenever i try 2 sleep then there'll b some ppl from my class msging me on how 2 do the assignments n all. Sorry guys but I havent even started so I cant really help u guys @ the moment.

N yeah, last fri jamming session is cancelled cos some ppl r "busy" having fun while I'm stuck inside this hellhole wif nothing but well, STRESS. N anyway, today's jamming session is also cancelled bcos of the stupid ITPM class which ends @ 7pm. Hiaz...........

Well there's 1 last thing dat I'm not sure to call it a frustration or joke of the day, cos there's SOME1 wh's trying 2 imitate ME. I mean, wtf is dat all abt? Trying 2 bcome the super rebellious deliquent, then b a musician n join a band, then wanna draw up some comics(i think he gets tired of dat already), EVRYTHING! Evry1 knows dats wat the infamous Shadow from GVSS usually does. Ok fine, i'm talking crap here but seriously, nothing benefits if u keep doing this. Not only u'll b labelled as a COPYCAT but watever u do, all the end results goes to me (if u do smth goes to me but if u do bad things my name gets disgraced). Ok I'm talking crap again, but as the frenly neighborhood Shadow, I advice u , b urself, there's nothing gd gonna happen if u keep copying other ppl's lifestyle u know. N not only dat, u wont even feel gd bout urself. N i'm neither a saint nor a devil, so there's nothing gd u can take of me. So stop being such a COPYCAT!

Kk seriously i need to get back to my studies but b4 i leave it here, I would like to wish all taking O lvl MT paper n ITPM Class Test 2 respectively ALL THE BEST. Big Bro Shadow is behind u supporting all the way! =D

Until then guyz.............................

TaLeS Of 3 FrenZ.......

Well, i'm busy as usual, obviously. Wif the tests and assignment deadlines chasing after my ass all the time, I havent been getting proper relaxation so i'm pretty stressed @ the moment. So dats y some ppl may have notice me being grumpy or smth, but seriously, i didnt mean 2 offend u guys in any way. Dat's y i wanna appologise if i have hurt u all without realising. Sorry =(

Anyway, the only time that I can destress is usually the jamming sessions. Ah yes! Talking bout jamming sessions, last friday's practice was pretty cool, though it still doesnt go as well as i might have planned. But then, we r still a new band after all so mayb i might b bit too fast. But still it feels really gd to b one complete band again. Well if evrything goes as planned we would be able to finish some things n make few covers but oh well, it's still too early to say anything.

But anyway skool n work make things quite busy.......but unfortunately i got additional work this time round. Recently, a fren of mine who used to work wif me during our "sec skool comic dayz"(we spend most of our time working on comics for skool newsletter) approach me n request for help to make a new storyboard. Yeah I know I haven quite finished wif the "School Dayz" comic(still stuck at chapter 7 i think) but for frenship sake(or dat's wat i think anyway) so i dcide to help him out. The storyboard is entitled "Tales Of 3 Friends" n goes like this:

3 childhood frens 1st met during elementary skool,
Live in the same neighborhood, n study at the same class,
They all have different ambitions,
1st wan 2 b a successful businessman,
2nd wan 2 b a wonderful cook,
3rd wan 2 b a famous rock star,
So as they began to part their ways,
Once their high school graduation have pass,
5 years later, they are finally reunited,
Wat have changed them during those 5 years?
Wat challenges will await them in the future?
Will their bond from the past finally came to last?

Oh well, dats wat i think it shud goes anyway =P............But then this is the plan for the intro of the story so it's up to my pal to determine the story flow. I'll b helping him on the narration but this is NOT my work.(actually i got the idea after watching several chinese n japanese dramas =P)

I'm not in the mood to talk any further cos I'm tired n stressed (abt skool obviously) so i think i just gonna end it here for now.

Until then guyz............................................

LoVe = HeArtPaiN

(For some ppl, love is the best feeling that they could ever experienced throughout their entire life. For others, it's the painful feeling experienced every day as though it's a living hell. N sad to say, I happen to be the latter)

Sorry guys, for being MIA for so long. Nothing much happen so dun worry, u guys havent missed much. Though I was kinda busy offlate, with the project deliverable submissions and class tests which are all over last wk. Sad to say I can't really relax anytime soon cos there's still few deliverables dat needs to be settled. Oh well, life never goes as wat u wanted, didnt it?

It's kinda weird talking about love n relationships when I already dcide at the beginning of this yr dat I'm thru wif 'em. But u can't help envy when u hear ur frens chatting freely about their bf/gf or when u see couples roaming around u. But weird enough, some of my frens keep consulting me about this matter n i wasnt really sure if I'm the rite person to give the proper advice. Most of the time I would just listen to them rambling bout their problems but I hardly dare to provide the solutions.

Me? Hahaha, I nvr really experienced true love myself, been in couple of relationships which all have sad endings. Yeah Avril Lavigne u got dat rite, So Much For My Happy Ending XD. Nah I have been thru wif this crap for more than (I dunno how many) times. But naturally, majority of the girls would see me as an absolute jerk or dork (sounds like Radiohead's Creep "I'm a creep; I'm a weirdo") so I'm not really dat attractive kind of person. But I nvr blame them or myself, bcos I believe dat someday some1 will accept me for who I am (even though dat belief can b a bit delusional at times).

Yeah, while on the topic, I vowed earlier on not to get distracted with these relationship stuff but naturally, I fallen for some1 few wks ago. Yeah she was in the same class wif me n happen to b on the same project team as me, n i thought i consider myself lucky. She's pretty, cute n i love the way she laugh at the most dumbest joke dat me n (mostly)my teammates make. I thought mayb finally she's the 1 for me. But then, on the nite dat i decided to confess 2 her, I manage to discover dat she's actually already attached. Yeah dat's predictable, who the hell prefer this creep over some1's who's hot? It really tears my heart, makes me cry for quite a while, evrytime i see her face but oh well, u can't force things to happen rite? All I can do now is wish dat she has an eternal happiness wif whoever she loves.............n dat I move on as well........................

Kk, enough bout these relationship topic, else I gonna cry any minute. Moving on, bout my band, Titanium Hearts, it's going full force once again wif the new additions (Bassist n drummer) in the band. Though there are some disappointments, like how dat stupid Livin Forte Productions actually already closed dwn (y the hell they still put up their stupid website when their business's no longer runnin?) n dat our progress is much slower than i anticipated (but still we r making progress anyway rite?), but however, we'll b putting our very best to make up for lost time. Anyway I know a lot of u have demands on our performance, but I'm sorry to say dat u gotta b lil bit more patient wof us, let us be properly ready, alrite?

Okay dats all for now, but b4 i go i would like 2 share a quote from 1 of wise fren's fb profile:

True Love never runs smooth

Until then guyz...................................

................SetaDpU RoF KcaB

Nah, i'm just plain bored so i got nothing else better 2 do........-.-

Yeah I know it's been a while since I last updates, but I'm sorry there's nothing much to update here cos there's NOTHING interesting to update you guyz sadly =( But I'm just updating cos some ppl ask me to.........

Anyway everything's preetty normal for these past few days, other than there's more work for me to settle(actually i put up this post partly cos i lazy 2 do my work =x). N i'm doing xtra work here cos i doing 4 subjects while the others do only 2! No fair =(

But watever, at least i gain more knowledge than them(well dats wat i usually tell myself) But seriously, the deadlines are killing me! I mean, the class tests are on 1 day n the project submission on the following day? Man sometimes i really dunno wat to do, to study for test or finish the shitty projects 1st. Hiaz....................

Nothing much 2 say bout work, except dat every1 of my best frens at my workplace have left n now i'm stuck here all alone, with the rest of the super childish young crew. Wanna resign but boss dun allow me =(

But on the other hand, Titanium Hearts are gonna b more active again, cos we've been practising more covers lately. Yeah i know we suppose to finish up the single but we have to do a bit of reorganization since we have a new rhythm guitarist, but it'll be finished soon so plz b patient. But anyway this friday we'll be checking out a new jamming studio at Livin' Forte, the equipments shown at their website seems to be as gd as L-Cube so i hope it's the real deal when we jam there =)

Have to get back to my work so dats all for now

Until then guyz...........................

Week 1, SeM 3.1

This could have been the best term I ever have in my entire three years of poly life. Although the timetable really sux but at least I get to meet new frens from other diplomas, have a lady boss for one of my project(lol?) and the best, I finally get to study the subjects that I'm INTERESTED in. Or am I saying all these way too early.

For the new term, I'll be studying IT Project Management(ITPM), Technology & Innovation(TAIN), IT Outsourcing(ITOS) and Advanced Japanese. Yeah all these sounds a bit complicated at first but to me, it's all actually quite simple. Maybe I may sound a bit overconfident since I currently learning the basics but I'm really sure I can do this(except for Advanced Japanese I really need to work hard to score in the subject). But anyway, now is the time for me to redeem myself since I've been getting poor grades for these past two yrs.

Aside from the studying, i get to meet new ppl and make frens wif them, like Ji Zhou, Hairiandy, Larry, Brendon and my new "lady boss" of ITPM, Elisha. They're really friendly, even though I did not come from the same diploma as they were. I also get to meet some ppl from my diploma as well, like Jamie, Alan and Jeremy, and not to mention the "MouseHunt Chief" Keith.

But oh well, as far as I hate to admit it, I have to study really hard this time round, or else suffer a delayed graduation. Even though, it's gonna be stressful, but I feel it's gonna be a breeze(unless some1 or something distracts me along the way =P).........................

Until then guyz..........................

I'M BacK

Yeah I am finally back! Sorry for being MIA for so long but I've been pretty busy and too tired/lazy by the end of the day. But there's lots of things dat happen these past few wks so I gonna use this opportunity to tell everything(instead of listening to lecture =x)

First of all, lots of things have happened wif my band Titanium Hearts. First of all, there's few chges to the members of the band but regardless, Julius and myself are still the permanent band members, so we still need the bassist and the drummer. We are still recruiting so if any1's interested, plz let me know asap. Putting dat aside, even there's only the 2 of us left, we manage to make a new acoustic guitar-based song entitled "First True Love". This song is about a guy who fall in love with a gal and can't bear to lose her. Yeah, a typical love song, nothing much but since it's still not finalized yet, we plan to improve it =)

Well, these past few weeks work as been pretty normal(boring as usual). But still, there's promotions coming(1st spicy shaker fries then the cinnamon melts, coming soon: Quarter Pounder) But it doesn't really matter to me much now cos gotta spend less time on work and more time on studies(or at least dats wat i told myself =P)

Talking bout studies, yeah I'm back at skool and this time it's bad as usual. Even though it's only 4 subjects this year but my timetable is still f***ed up. Evry wkday from 9am to 6pm got class, only hr break at 1pm for lunch. Even though I'm determined to score well this time round, but I'm having a hard time tying to motivate myself to do so (do i look like the kind of person who study? no =( )

Well, actually more I wanna write abt but due to time constraint and dat I run out of ideas of wat to talk abt, I'll update ltr........................

Until then guyz...........................

MeMoRieZ...........

As I flip over to my Pictures folder on my com and see these pictures, I paused for a while. Then think, these pictures that have been taken, all hold valuable memories of my life. The time that I spend wif these ppl, the laughter that we share, I will always remember every single moment of them. Although the times has passed long ago, but i will always remember, bcos they have been a part of my life. And whether these ppl still rmb me or not, hate me or not, they're still my friends, they're still a part of my life. Watever sins they may have committed against me, I have already forgiven them and wont ever bear a grudge against them. I'll nvr forget them, and the moments we share together, for they are such good memories to me.................

And speaking of memories, I'll b attending my class outing nxt tuesday! I can't really wait to see all my old pals again. 3 yrs of separation is indeed long, and this is the time for us to be reunited again as a class. Or at least I hope every1 is able to come for the outing. Man I can hardly wait for nxt Tues to come! =)

Until then guyz..............................

LiFe ReFlecTionS..........

Okay, okay I'm sorry for not updating this blog for so long but honestly, I've been damn busy off late, and when i say i'm busy, I MEAN IT. I mean, wif guitar practices(I only manage to master the basic chords but at least it's an improvement right? =x), work, my comic(it's been on hold at Chapter 5 at the moment) and now school work, I haven't had enough time for myself or to rest, with this constant worrying thoughts going on my mind. *sigh*.............

For work, it's pretty tough if it doesnt get any worse. What's wif the crowd intake(all the students and NS men crowding in) and the new promotion(the hot & spicy shaker fries) things couldnt b really easy these days, could they? Students usually crowd on wkdays but now sometimes at wkends also(I hear some students have to do smth for Flag Day or smth, collecting donations and stuff......Interesting) but usually students hogged the place for studying(geez, there's a place called the National Library u know). And the NS men keep coming in wif their family, frens, etc.(I get to see some lady officers XD). But dat isnt the worst part! My M'sian pals Suhaimi n Susan r resigning soon n they'll return to their homeland soon.(Well dats a gd thing for them to be reunited wif their families again, but i gonna miss them someday=( )

And now for school, it's bcoming a concern nowadays cause of the recent sem exam result. And it's DISAPPOINTING, wif a big D! I mean this time by far I did the worst, failing 3 subjects this time(this is nothing compared to the sec skool dayz but dats not the pt). Man although I xpect smth bad for my result but I nvr xpect this BAD. Nvm, this is a wake call for me and this time, I'm determine to set things right from now on, n I pray I nvr make the same STUPID mistake ever again. Wat's wif my newly found ambition(I decided to be a Great Secondary School Teacher) on the line, I dare not make a single careless move this time round.

While I'm gone, I've also made some reflections. It didn't make any sense at first when I heard these words but now it do:

Life is the process of a person living;

And through it there's joy and pain, in many forms and many ways;

It's always good to have joy all the time;

But why does some of it have to involve hurting people?

Be it physically, mentally or emotionally?

It wont do no 1 gd if the person is hurt, neither the perpetrator nor the victim;

But why does this pain happen anyway?

It nvr makes any1 feel good, but even if it does for how long will it last?

And why must hatred exist?

Why must conflicts exist?

Why cant ppl learn to understand each other?

And accept each other for who they are, not what they are?

Why does stereotype exist?

Do ppl feel gd labelling others, or getting labelled?

And there again, why must ppl settle conflicts in such a violent manner?

With fights, with war, ppl's life end up destroyed or corrupted;

Without a single chance for redemption or forgiveness;

Does it make ppl glorious for making such cruel acts?

Dun they'll b judged in the end for the sins dat thay have committed?

They say they r working hard not to make the actions dat'll cause them to go to hell;

But it was their choices that they make after all;

And usually blame was placed on other ppl, even God;

And speaking of which, God makes all of us ppl equal;

Though some of us may b different in some ways;

But nvrtheless, no 1 is better than the other;

It depends on their decisions, their actions on how ppl want to live;

But again, why not ppl achieve happiness together, as a society?

When I first read these, I was thinking it must b from some saint, but no, these words were right after all, to me @ least. These words really motivate me to bcome a gd person, no, a better person in my life, to redeem myself from my sins and move forward. After all, neither of us is purely a saint, we dun escape from making mistakes but we can try our best not to repeat them. After all, we are role models to the young ones. If we dun wan them to make the same mistake as we did, we need to make fine examples of ourselves, right?

Until then guyz...........................

PwNeD.......@ WorK

*sigh*, this is the worst day of work i've been in this year(or is there any worse days?). Yeah I seriously would have killed myself for coming for work shud I have known dat these horrible things would have happened.

First off, I was supposed to be doing batch cook for the 1st half of the shift. But man, every1 keeps laughing at me the moment I wear an apron over my uniform just like the other kitchen crews. Yeah every1 especially Izwan, Azri n Nat were laughing at me bcos I think it's their 1st time they see me, wearing an apron, doing batch cook. N Izwan's like "Cheh, ko dah pandai masak ayam seh"(Wow, you are gd at cooking chicken) and I'm like wth? Okay, mayb I couldnt blame any 1 of them bcos they nvr see me cook anything in the kitchen b4 so every1 presume I'm the typical teenager who only knows how to cook instant noodles. Seriously, screw the uniform code, I nvr wear an apron when doing batch cook ever again!

2ndly, I was doing runner for Shi Min when Azri accidentally elbowed my nose and I'm like having to struggle between settling orders while have to stop my nose from bleeding at the same time. Lucky it wasnt serious though, or else I have to go back home early. =(

When things doesn't get any worse, Ah Mun(one of the kitchen aunties) accidentally elbow my stomach while trying to prepare the McChicken meat. Too bad I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. To finish me off, 1 of the managers told me dat my name wasnt in today's work schedule, which means I shudnt have work today! N I've been wasting almost 8hrs for nothing! Damn, screw myself for not checking the schedule properly. But then I'm supposed to work every wkend but y 2day is an exception, I wonder?

Now I gotta rest cos tmr b4 work(confirm got work), I'll b playing soccer wif my old pals from my religious class at the field nearby my house. Can't wait for tmr morning to come =)

Until then guyz.........................

HaTreD..........

Alrite, I know after the incident dat take place about 1 and half months ago, the haters from ROC still do not stop their continuous disturbance on me, be it calling out sarcastic remarks at my workplace or putting up the hate msg at my tagboard or putting up shameful videos abt me on YouTube, when I have continuously ignored them for these past few weeks. I know some of my frens, like Streex, Double D, Ripper and the others are itching to make a payback for these acts but I tell them not to do so. I know you guys do care about me and are going all out to protect me, but I don't want you guys to make any more trouble just bcos of these idiots. Bsides, making the problem bigger isn't gonna solve it. And didn't I told u this 3 impt things?:

Never try to solve any problem by violence;it only make things worse;

We're given the strength to protect ourselves and our loved ones;not to hurt others;

No matter how strong we are, they'll always b some1 stronger than us;

I appreciate ur concern about this matter, but as usual, if there's any problem about me, let me handle it.

As for the ROC, I can only say dat I really pity you all. Although you are respectable talented musicians but if you continue behaving this way, still disturbing other ppl when they dun disturb u all, I'll doubt the public would view u ppl as the gd matured guys. It's up to u to heed this piece of advice, but if u dun then too bad:

If u defame other ppl, u'll defame urself in the process. So stop it.

God makes every one of us equal. So what makes u think u r better than some1 else?

As for the other haters out there, I dun care wth u think of me n I dun wan 2 b bothered bout it either. But it's no use if u ppl wan 2 spread evil rumors bout me cos u'll b looked dwn as the bad guy. I'm not a gd guy either, I do make mistakes n sins as well, but I do not resort to violence to solve problems. And I know wat's right n wat's wrong.

Anyway to all the other readers, I'm sorry but I have to remove the tagboard for a while, until the chaos is over and peace is settled in. I also do not wan 2 do this but it's annoying to see hate msg on my tagboard every single day. So plz bear wif it, if u cant then blame the idiots who hate me. =(.......................

Until then guyz..................................

HavE A GD DaY =)

Well this is finally one of the finest days of my life, after suffering those long days of suffering, finally I manage to give a smile.

Yeah dat's me and my brand new I-Suzuki acoustic guitar. Manage to buy this baby in a package with the guitar case, picks, pick holder, pitch tube(I dunno wth is this for) and a book about guitar chords and tabs for just $75. Initially I want to buy the black colour one which costs $45 without the package but it was sold out but nvm this looks damn gd as well. Only dat since it's white, I have to be extra careful to avoid it being scratched or dirty. But unfortunately, I can't keep this guitar at home bcos my parents wouldn't allow it to be brought home. So it was instead kept at Jule's place. Thanks a lot to Luqman, who share this wonderful piece of information, to Jule and Irwan, who accompany me to Penin just to get this guitar, and again to Jule, who help me to keep the guitar safe for me. Thanks a lot guys, I really appreciate all your help. =)

After buying my guitar, me and Irwan head to the clothes shop(the shopkeeper is really happy to see us again) and I bought a pair of white jeans whereas Irwan bought a dark blue shirt and a pair of white jeans as well. It wasnt really cheap but then the quality is quite good and the shopkeeper is really friendly so we decided dat we'll go to this shop again, should we need any more clothes. =)

Then, we head to Bugis for some window shopping and over there, Irwan bought a pair of shades for himself and a cool tribal designed necklace for me from 77th street. Thanks for the gift, Irwan =)

Next we head back to Pasir Ris to pick up Jule and we bussed dwn to Simei for some jamming. It's been a while since I last been there(the last time I go there wif my former bandmates). Although things doesn't go really well as planned(since I'm a noob guitarist and Irwan's a noob drummer; Jule's the only pro guitarist there lol =x), but we manage to find some of our weaknesses and we trained hard to cover up those mistakes. Even now, we are already planning to make a new song (Irwan wan 2 dedicate it to some1) so I daresay we are really making huge progress, even though we struggle for quite some time. So as I can now safely say, Titanium Hearts is finally on the road to its goal. =)

After jamming, Irwan left early bcos he needs to go home early while Jule and I head back to Pasir Ris and have our chicken rice dinner at Ananas cafe. Seriously, the food is damn gd but it's too little(wat to xpect? It's cheap after all =x). Then we chat for some time b4 we finally head back to our respective homes.

It's really one heavenly day for me today, even though it costs me a bomb(I spend more than a hundred dollars today in total - biggest expenditure in a day). But 1 thing 4 sure, I would wish we can spend another day like this, except dat mayb we shudnt head to Simei for jamming nxt time...............

Haha

You`re looking for something you can`t find
If you give it up, you`ll lose your mind
There`s always something in your way
What can you say?
You`re gonna have good day

- The Click Five

Until then guyz........................................

BroKen TrusT.........

This is part where I scream my 3 days worth of anger out:

Yeah yeah, I've been hearing a hell lot of complains from my managers, and some of my former "comrades" about me not appearing for work and comes up wif the dumbest excuses(eg. kena migraine when can play psp for 5hrs straight....wtf). But then i used to care bout these kind of things, but well, i USED TO. Rite now if u idiots gonna complain to me about anything I'd no longer want to hear it anymore. I no longer care if u idiots gonna suffer cos it's none of my business. U know y i dun care? Bcos u idiots dare to mess arnd wif me, taking advantage of me when I'm actually just helping u out! Instead of thanking me for wasting a hell lot of time dealing wif ur goddamn problems, u actually take advantage to the extend dat I'm just treated like a slave, without any feelings. One last thing b4 I leave, GOOD LUCK bcos I aint helping u anymore, not until u made up for the trust I have 4 u dat's already BROKEN..........

N to my fren, who have betrayed me recently, I dunno wat to say to you anymore. Bcos u already chosen ur path n there's nothing I can do to save you. Even now if you return to me eventually, I wouldn't know if I can accept u back. Well we still can be frens, but I can't care 4 u as a fren like I used to. This is the fate dat u have chosen sadly, so u have to face the consequences willingly............................

Sorry to say this post's been harsh, but I have to vent it out b4 some innocent person could get hurt........

Until then guyz...............................

28th FeB OuTinG

It's been a fun day today. Like planned, I skip work and instead meet Irwan and Julius for a super long but satisfying outing.

Have to wait for at least 10-15 mins for Julius to come at first, then we first head to Penin to check out some guitars - and I have found the cheapest accoustic guitar that Luqman told me about so I gonna set aside bout $60 from the nxt pay to get dat =). Anyway Irwan check out at the hip hop clothing shop to look for some white pants/jeans. Then lastly, we check out at another clothing shop and Julius and Irwan bought themselves a black and a white shirt respectively. I was thinking of buying 1 too, but I gotta sort out my wardrobe 1st haha.

Nxt have a light afternoon snack at Funan's McDonald's. Then head out back to the Hangout Cafe, which is the highlight of the day. First, we play Rock Band, then Guitar Hero, Tekken 6(I play myself) and finally Forza Motorsport 3. The entire experience was hilarious bcos when we play Rock Band and Guitar Hero, we play songs dat none of us have ever heard from(not to mention playing expert lvl till the game pwn us in less than a minute). And in Forza Motorsport 3, Irwan and Julius try to drive the fastest racing cars, but in the end they cant control the car properly(till I lost count how many times they spin the car around) XD

And finally, we have dinner at Peninsula Plaza's Long John Silver(we make fun of a pretty cashier there) then finally head home. It was a good experience in this outing and I hope we get to have another one. And this time, maybe some of our friends would join us as well =).............

Until then guyz....................................

Just got back from another day of work @ McDonald's. As usual, it sucks.

On the brighter side, I do not have to arrange the chiller and the storeroom as the managers usually tell me(even though I see a massive delivery order come in), but on the other side however, I have to deliver 4 trays of prosperity bun(the bun they use for prosperity burger obviously), 2 trays from Tampines Mall branch and 2 trays from Downtown East branch, all to White Sands branch. Wasted like almost 1 hr taking bus and MRT trips, but who cares?

What's more troublesome is that I have to take care of the fries station 4hrs straight because customers keep coming in. According to some of my colleagues, the crowd has been there since 7 or 8am in the morning and until 3pm, the crowd finally clear. And most of the customers are all from the army. Okay, I know today the NS people will be preparing for BMT but is it so many ppl meh? Must be something that I have no idea of. But as usual, I couldn't care less, since it doesn't concern me anyway.

One thing for sure, i can't wait to hangout with Irwan and Julius tomorrow afternoon! Yeah I know I'm supposed to be working tomorrow, but I think I have a break before I spend my regular 6 days/wk work schedule. Irwan wants to check out the white blazer at Century Square but I also want to check out the guitars @ Peninsula Plaza. According to Luqman, the cheapest guitars are all there so I wanna check out every single 1 of them. And yeah, I'm planning to head to the hangout cafe at dhoby ghaut for some Wii fun! =)

Alrite dats all I got for u now...............

Until then guyz.............................

ReFlecTioN

Man lots of strange stuff's been happening lately. First of all, Jule's injured his right hand pretty badly so band rehearsals have to be put on hold(hiaz........) and we would no longer be bowling on Sunday. But I come up wif a brilliant plan of going to the hangout cafe and play console games again! Just like last last wednesday, mayb we'll b playing band heroes again (but too bad Wan n Nat wont b able to join us this time round bcos they r working on dat day -.-). But other than dat, my guitar lessons have to be put on hold until Jule's hand recovered =(. Nvm i'll wait......................

2ndly, there's 2 police vans under my block just now, arnd 8.20pm, when I'm heading to mosque for prayers. I dunno wth is going on but as usual, I couldn't care less. Cos it's not my problem and not my business to begin wif............................

Sometimes when I look up to the sky and think, I wonder "Why are these things happen? They say there's always a reason behind every event but wat is it?". And sometimes I reflect myself "Did I make the right move? Is there a better way to deal this problem? Did I hurt someone when I do it?" Thoughts sometimes makes me realize something but most of the time, it only just messed up my mind..............................

Until then guyz...................................

WheN BoreDoM StrikeS........AGaiN!!

Yeah my plans got cancelled again for today. Cos Uddin suddenly told me that he's broke. Oh well, it's kinda hard to make plans these days, for one thing, it's super difficult to find a common free time among my frenz.........

Therefore, like it's written on the title, yeah I am bored..........almost to death. Yeah I didnt manage to install the latest cfw to my PSP and therefore, I cant play any games. I was planning to buy Rock Band Unplugged UMD since the CSO version kinda sux but then it's still really cost a bomb! $59.80, no joke! I thouht the price might come down after few months but I guess not. Well, maybe after few mths pay I'll get it....................(fyi, my PSP now serve as video player :P)

Yeah usually I do have hobbies at home, like comic drawing for instance, but I'm running out of ideas to draw so I have to put my omic on hold. But meantime, I'll read more mangas to get more inspirations. What am I currently reading? GTO(Great Teacher Onizuka) and Love Hina! Well as some of my frens know, my comic is based on school life and bits of romance so these mangas sure serve as great guides. Other than reading mangas, I do watch anime as well. The last anime series that I watch, Shuffle! and Myself;Yourself;, proves to be great help as well bcos it sometimes give idea on how to give bits of drama to the storyline....................

Anyway music-wise, I'm kinda bored. Bcos rite now all my bandmates in my current band are all on the examination week so I cant ask them out for jamming sessions cos they have to study for the exams. So i have to make do with watever I have at the moment, but I still cant wait for the exams to be done, cos I'm waiting for Julius to give me guitar lessons(lol). But then as I see the my old bands, I am really proud of them. Even though I cant b there together wif them, but I will always be supporting all of them. Why? Because every single one of those musicians, no matter what happen to them, be it gd or bad, he/she'll nvr give up. They'll keep pushing one step forward at a time towards their respective goals. And dat's the 1 thing I respect about them. And thus it's been made as my personal motto as a musician:

To respect every musician for their talents, not their personalities;

No musician is better than the other, every one is special in his/her own ways;

As for me and my own band, well, we'll work hard and make sure we don't fall behind too much. =)

Meantime, hmmmmm, what should I do?

Until then guyz......................

EXhausTed

Just got back from work................

Ya rite!

Nah actually got home bout 30 mins ago n i dcide to destress 1st so play 8 rounds of Counter-Strike and now I'm feeling way better.

But it's kinda strange just now when I was in charge of cooking fries, I suddenly feel so moody. I dunno, maybe I'm kinda tired or smth. Sorry guys for making such fuss wif dat gloomy face n poor attitude, mean no malice...............

But overall, it's kinda happy day for me. Finally able to converse wif Nat as per normal(the ice has finally been broken) but when Irwan offer me to be Nat's tutor, it's a definite NO-NO. Not because of me schooling as Nat pointed out but I already sworn NOT to tutor any1 after wat happen last yr. But still all the best for ur Math O lvl, Nat! =) (need help?dun call me. Nah just kiding haha =P)

N also, lots of thanks to Irwan, finally got a new deck of poker cards with Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children theme on it. And because of it, me, Irwan and Atiqah play during Irwan's n my breaks and even before me n Irwan go home. Irwan likes to give up easily after I pwn him 4 games in a row, but Atiqah proves to be damn difficult to beat. But I manage to win her 3-2 games! Haha! Take dat! =x

Anyway tmr, would b bowling @ e-hub rite after Friday prayers wif Uddin n his bro. Been a while since i last met him so it's gd to finally able to have fun wif him =)

Until then guyz...............................

FrusTraTed........

Couple of weeks backs I've read a post at Nat's blog bout how frustrated she was when her plans kept getting cancelled and now it's happening to ME today. Usually I'm a home-body and would not go out often but this time I think I understand this feeling of frustration dat she felt at dat time.

Here's the list of plans dat got cancelled today:

1) Event: Going to gym wif Irwan this morning

What Happen: Irwan cancel

Reason: Irwan's family problems

2) Event: Going to Century Square to get Irwan's blazer

What Happen: I cancel =P

Reason: Irwan forget got Sunday to do grp shopping spree wif me and Julius(wth?)

3) Event: Play bowling wif Uddin

What Happen: Uddin cancel

Reason: Uddin too tired after finishing his exam(wth?)

4) Event: Have dinner wif Sharmaine n the PRC gang

What Happen: Sharmaine cancel

Reason: Due to super low response from the PRC gang, Sharmaine cancel the dinner cos she thought no pt organizing the dinner(I even plan to show her my comic vol.1 to her)

Yeah, dats all of it. A lot rite? I know. But seriously I was damn frustrated and disappointed but nvm, in the end I watch my favourite DVDs at home. Not so bad after all rite? But 2moro I'd be definitely be back to work, that's the only plan dat's definitely confirmed - else Eli would definitely kill me, and some more got pay. But even though it's not really enjoyable but if I'm lucky enough to b at the counter front, I would b able to see school gals entering Mcd (wtf? XD)

That's bout all for now I guess. Wtf, I take 30mins to write this post?

Until then guyz.....................

P.S. I'm beginning to love Taylor Swift's "You Belong With Me" =P

Zzzzzz........

Ah, finally i'm back at my com. Sorry guyz, i was pretty busy wif a hell lot of things dats been happening lately so I was pretty busy wif stuff till I have no time to update.

Anyway let's start off wif me. Yeah I finally reach 19 years old! Yeah my birthday has passed by last Friday. And to all my frens who flooded my inbox wif b'dae wishes, thanks a lot guys! I really appreciate it coz u ppl really make my day! =) Even though on dat special day I was kinda bored in the afternoon coz every1's busy doing their own stuff(for 1 moment I thought they forgot my b'dae). But the night celebration was fantastic! Brought to a restaurant @ Bedok to have a feast there(I got my favourite Chilli Crab and Shark Fin Soup yay! =D) then later go over 2 Ray's place and have a party there wif some of my old bands B3 and Street Sharkz. Of course there's jamming there and I get to perform my favourite songs. Man, these guyz surely know how to make great parties for me, thanks again guyz. Just like the old times, my b'day were nvr dull(even though i dun get any presents =( )

Talking bout great outing, last wednesday gotta hangout wif Wan, Nat and Wei Ming @ dhoby ghaut. I forgot wat's the place name but it's a cafe dat provide console games for us to play. So we play Band Hero, Guitar Hero and Wii Sports. Band Hero was fine, except that the others make me vocal stupid songs like "YMCA" and even Taylor Swift's "You belong with me" (Seriously it's damn funny when Nat make me vocal the Taylor Swift song - I practically make a fool of myself there). Nxt is Guitar Hero, where me n Wan compete against each other as we play Linkin Park's "What I've Done". Yeah I know u r a much better guitarist damnit -.- . And finally Wii Sports, which happens to be my least favourite game. Bowling sux cause I cant really bowl, be it in real life or at Wii Sports. Canoeing is even more stupid cos we just tire ourselves by rotating our arms counter clockwise (I think none of us know how to paddle in 1st place cause the canoe keep going off course). Worst of all, archery, where the others practically laughing their ass off when I simply cant keep my hand still without shaking(Damnit i'm cut out for guns, not bow n arrows -.-). But I love table tennis n swordfighting, cos i gotta show my talent in those 2(although Nat complain I was too over-excited when I play swordfighting, but i got to pwn u, Wan haha). We finish playing at around 10 then have dinner at BK. But overall, I have loads of fun and I really enjoy myself. Thanks guys.................and I would certainly love to go to dat cafe again sometimes.....................

Dats for the ups but there's certainly some dwns as well. For example, there's been a fight or smth between my 2 close frens @ Mac (for some reason I do not know) and they certainly do not wan 2 speak or acknowledge each other again. It's really sad and I simply do not know wat to do. It just sadden me whenever I have to just watch this going on helplessly. But I do hope they patch things up really soon......................

And yeah now I'm freaking pissed off wif some ppl. Yeah i know i've always been angry but these ppl really drive me nuts. Seriously, they just claim dat they r my frens but they do not treat me likewise. They say that I meant a lot to them but they dun mean it. They left me out at great parties and they do not bother to give the slightest attention when I'm in deep shit. They say they got my back but they feign ignorance the moment I get into trouble. Seriously, if u ppl got problems wif me then spit the shit out, instead of giving me this fuckin treatment, u shitheads!

Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away

- Linkin Park

Until then guyz..........................

CNY n VaLenTine

Before I say anything here, I would firstly like to wish all of my chinese friends a happy and prosperous new year.

On to business, Chinese new year has finally come again. And yesterday which happens to be the eve, White Sand McDonald's is almost like a ghost town. And I cant blame it because the shopping mall itself is like a bigger ghost town. So, not much of customers, yeah even during peak period, so it's kinda boring. But then I really have to feel sorry for my China colleagues. I mean, they have to be stuck here while every other Chinese ppl are at reunion dinners, I must say that I think they would wish that they could be reunited with their family again. Or so I think.

And yeah, today's also happen to be Valentine's Day, which is to explain why I've seen so many couples around lately, be it teenagers and even adults. Some of my fellow colleagues may have wanted to go out wif their bf/gf but then, I dun think the same. Why? Because I think I may have enjoyed being single for three years now to the fact that these kind of things doesn't really bother me. But then, it's not as if I'm attached now, so who am I to complain?

But if there's one thing I would like to complain, it's about work. Seriously, everyone thinks that I'm a robot or something? A person who can do everything so perfectly without a single mistake? A person with no feelings or emotions? Damn it lah, i'm a normal human being for God's sake! It's bad enough to have a manager who picks on me every single time without leaving me in peace, it's worse to have colleagues who mess up my work and laugh at me when I'm so messed up! Seriously, I was feeling so pissed and tired and stressed, but I choose to keep quiet and contain my anger instead of letting it bursting out. And some more I was requested to work tomorrow becos short of crew, but nvm, I'll let my mood to dcide to work or not........

And oh before I forget, to all psp gamers, if u r playing homebrew or downloaded games, DO NOT update your firmware to ofw 6.20. Bcos it wont be able to read any of your games. This happens to me yesterday so I'm downgrading it back to 5.50 GEN-D.....

Until then guyz........................

-.-!!!

Well today has been a bad day for me, starting right from the morning, the time that I wasted my morning nap for nothing. Yeah, well I actually wake up early and started working on my leftover programming assignment, only to be stuck at the beginning part(and it's not even 1/3 of the work done). So i knew i gonna fail the subject anyway and now, I have to start preparing for the supplementary paper............

But then on a brighter side, I finally manage to get my comic book done. Yeah finally the 1st volume, which contains only 4 episodes, are finally done. It's quite well done I must say, although it's not as good as the Japanese manga(which I try to follow but fail eventually), but it's not so bad after all(obviously because I've been putting huge amounts of time and effort on it). And now I think I'll take a break before I start working on the 2nd volume...........

Yesterday was kinda weird though, because while I was working on my assignment, I receive a call from Faiz, a former classmate of mine and a gd friend, in the middle of the night. But it's not even past 5 mins or so and the line was cut off. Try to call him back but he nvr answer my call. So I didnt really know why Faiz called, but it's gd to hear him again. Watever he wans from me, well, I couldn't really care abt it...............

But man, I cant really wait for tomorrow. My new band, Titanium Hearts, is about to begin its 1st rehearsal! Man, this is so exciting and I bet I cant fall asleep cos I really cant wait for dat moment to come...................=)

Until then guyz.....................

FRienDs............

"Friends come n go in time" dats wat my mum used to tell me and yeah I do believe it. Bcos indeed, i used to know a lot of ppl throughout my lifetime but I'm close with very few of them nowadays. It's sad but as they say "There will be very few true frens but they'll b by ur side @ all times if u need them". And those words are very true. After all, the only pals dat I'm very close wif up to now, there's only 2 of them. Uddin, who's been my best fren since sec 1, n Wan, whom I know since primary 5.

Anyway it's sad but as life moves on, friendships will be affected as well(or so i've heard)...........

But now, I'm on the verge of losing another fren cos we've been in arguments bcos of certain misunderstandings and I really wan 2 make up wif her, just dat I cant find the rite time to do so. But I hope she's reading this:

My Friend,

It's been over more than three weeks or so that we have not chat with each other. It pains me every single time that we do not talk and laugh like we used to before we have these stupid arguments.

I know that I do not speak to you or even look at you. You must have felt that I am simply ignoring you, that I no longer care about you as a friend. But the truth is that I do care, it's just that I was afraid that you would not respond, or that I may unintentionally hurt you even deeper. That was why I do not dare to get near you, especially when I have no ideas how you feel about me.

And speaking of feelings, it is true that I have been hiding my feelings about you. It is true that I used to have a crush on you. But I realize that no matter how much I want to be close with you, it will never happen. Ever. For you deserve someone who is better than me. For I do not deserve someone who is so kind, so gentle as you are.

But even if we are not meant to be lover, I am very scared to lose you as a friend. Why sacrifice our two years of friendship, those times of joy and laughter, just because of these stupid arguments and misunderstandings? Would we just be mere acquaintances just because of this crap that have happen to us? No, I do not want that to happen! Not at all!

I am really sorry if I have hurt you, if I have broken your trust. Really I am. Because I never meant any of these to happen, not even one of them. I never intend to make you angry, or to make you cry, not even once. If there's always an opportunity, I would do whatever I can to make up for the things I've done.

But I understand now, it's all too late now. I understand if you do not wish to forgive me. I've taken full responsibility for the wounds I have inflicted on you and I will face whatever consequences, that comes along with it. But again, I hope, that whatever that have taken place, will not affect our friendship.

Because I hope, that no matter what happens, no matter where you are, we'll always be friends.

Please, if you have read this, let me know alright?

Until then guys.............................

TiTaNiuM HeArtS.........

Yay! Now I can finally say that I have escaped hell, which refers to the disturbances i receive for the past few weeks. I can guess that peace has finally settled in, even though I receive word dat the haters have been defaming me at websites such as YouTube, but I couldn't really care less bout dat. They would think that I would be crying over such actions that they have taken when in fact, I've been laughing my ass off. Especially the part when they say I would b coughing when they participate in a competition without me - me and my new bandmates were practically ROFL. Yeah seriously, cos we were all thinking "These jokers have seriously no idea wth they r saying". But nvm, we promise we dun butt in their business any longer bcos we dun wan 2 b involved wif them any more than I do.

So yeah about my new band, Titanium Hearts, we are a 5-piece alternative/pop rock band rocking right from the PRC, consisting of a lead vocalist, a lead guitarist, a rhythm guitarist, a bassist and a drummer. We play almost all genre(except metal ones) favourites from Blink 182, We The Kings, Green Day, Simple Plan, The Click Five, Yellowcard, Daughtry, Linkin Park, Secondhand Serenade and many more. We will also be composing our own songs as well bcos we dun wan to play just other ppl's songs u know. As we are a new band, we need all the help and support we need from our family and friends.

Yup dat shud b all for my new band, and we will make the band's Tagged group page and blog when we have the time. But for now, we are doing as much as we can to do get these set up asap.

So far I could say this has been a good break from all the hell that has break through for the past few weeks. Excpet dat there's few things that have been weird lately. For example, last saturday, a fire break out at my workplace and I have to carry 3 extremely heavy bottles of heavy duty cleaning liquid(just to realize later that I have just wasted 4 hrs of my precious time just to tire myself out). Okay about the fire I'm not really sure if it's really true but I realise there's a hell lot of smoke coming out of the kitchen. So this 'chaos' was due to an equipment malfunction(wth?).

Okay enough about the stupid fire, nxt up is even more stupid phone calls at midnite! Seriously I was sleeping peacefully when there's a couple of strange phone calls. The numbers are unknown so I didn't answer any of them at all. In fact who the hell wants to talk to me in the middle of the night?

Yeah these shud summarize the events that happen for these past few days, so i'll update anything interesting when I have the time.......=)

Until then guyz........................

NeW BanD.....NeW LiFe........

I hate it when everyone keeps talking bad things about me. Yeah i know i may have hurt you, but i really didn't mean to hurt you. If I have offended you or anything then, from the depths of my heart, I apologize. I am REALLY SORRY. I'm sorry that I can't be perfect. =(

But nvm, I already quit from my old band a long time ago(if u wan 2 know the reason y then ask me directly) and I'm putting this experience to the past. And now I'm starting everything afresh...........with a new band! Yeah I'm already forming another new band and it consists of a lead vocalist(myself), lead guitarist(Julius), rhythm guitarist(Azri) and bassist(Gladys). Yeah I know we are short of a drummer and a keyboardist, but we are still searching. Oh, we don't have a band name yet(so as you can see..........there's still a lot of things that we need to do here). But this is just a start for now.

Music wise, we are planning to play everything BUT metal(and I mean anything to do with metal). Why? Because from my past experience, I realize that the music we play reflects on the kind people we are and we don't want to play any songs that have some negativity(that is if you understand what I'm saying). But anyway Azri shares the same opinion as me(although I'm not sure he got experience or not) and since everyone agrees, we'll play all songs except metal ones.

It's really exciting with this happening, but as I told Julius, get your priorities right. Do not let this band thing distract you from any other important matters(especially SCHOOL - yeah i know it sucks but it'll determine your future you know). And yeah, I have to remind myself to follow this principle..........=P

Until then guyz.....................................

CrueL FacT BouT Ppl.....

(Just a quickie cos i'm in middle of class)

Sometimes I dun get it, y do ppl wan 2 have fight if there's NOTHING to settle? N y do ppl spam stupid text messages just to try to get the mailbox full? N y do ppl spread nasty rumours just bcos they hate dat particular person? N y ppl call other ppl awful names when dats not their names in the 1st place? Humans r indeed cruel, they wan peace but they dun practice it.

Dat's y we must all treasure each other @ every single moment, for they may only b by ur side for a while, even though they say they'll b wif u @ all times.

1st HairCut Of 2010.............

Yup last Monday I got a new haircut. It's Mohawk-like at the front to the middle and a Slope at the back, just like the style I have back in secondary skool(back to old times huh?). But anyway, I gonna miss my long hair though but nvm, it'll grow back long soon enough, rite? =)

Until then guyz.................

SoLiTude...........

Life's pretty normal here, if it couldn't get any worse..........

Last weekend sucks really hard, cos I cannot resign from my job at White Sands McDonald's for the eighth time in a row (yeah i know I promise that I wouldn't quit but then my income rate is too freaking low!) and therefore, i'm still stuck at being a crew there. And it's not as if I got promoted or smth(when I notice there's already quite a lot of ppl who are already promoted b4 me(and yeah i'm talking bout ppl who's been wif this company for a shorter time than me). But then slowly but surely, i notice things kinda change around there when I step in for work last Saturday. I mean the arrangement in the basement storeroom change again(that part I don't really care so long as I can find everything) but the storeroom door knob is still not changed when it's already spoilt!(In the end I was trapped inside the basement storeroom for half an hour before I manage to break open the door)

And for yesterday, I have to arrange the storeroom and the bun trays again. Seriously, if a McDonald's crew wants a gd workout he should try doing these tiring tasks. I mean, sometimes the manager may order too much for example, and in the end you gotta sort everything out and arrange all of them nicely so that everyone can move around in the storeroom without having to squeeze around.

If there's another significant change I notice around my workplace is that I can no longer interact freely with my old pals there anymore. I can talk freely with some of the juniors like Luqman and Azri for example but I can no longer do the same to any of my old frens and I don't know why. Okay I can understand that 1 of them already promoted to floor manager and he tends to be more busier(when he also have to train a new trainee manager) but what about the others? And another one of them even complain that I purposely avoiding her, pretending not to notice her n everything. Well, I know I fought wif her once and we already apologize to each other but if you continue to ignore my msg n everything, how the hell shud I know that you are still angry wif me or smth?

Sometimes it's not that I want to pretend that nothing happens when a hell lot of things have already taken place. And it's not that I don't want to be happy and rather b moody all the time. And it's also not as if I don't want to laugh when I feel like crying all the time. Very few ppl really care about how I really feel or whether I'm really doing well but for the others, why must they assume the worst of me when they have no idea of what my thoughts and worries are? There's lots of times that I just wanna scream my lungs out, that I wish the pain could finally go away because I can no longer stand the despair that I'm suffering........

But on a brighter note, I manage to make a new fren recently. Her name's Irah(short for Shahirah) and she's 17 this yr. I first got to know her when she add me on tagged then later at msn. We chat for twice(I think, or is it three times?) before she surprisingly give me her no. and ask me to chat wif her via text. She's really a nice gal who's quite concerned abt me(we talked abt my problems last nite) and she has quite a similar(but not exactly) background so we have a few interests in common. Few of my frens are already teasing me abt this, saying dat the 2 of us might hit off, but who knows?

Wow, that's really quite an essay that I've written here haha. Yup, this shud've summarized watever dat have happen this past wk. My god, this's like an essay back in secondary skool(can i get an A here? haha). Alrite that's bout all I think.................

Until then guyz..................................